MY STORY

 

I have two very clear early childhood memories, both as a baby. The first was when I was in my cot crying with so much frustration because I was telepathically communicating with my parents, but they just couldn't understand me. The second memory was when I was a baby and had an outer body experience and saw my lifeless body while my mother panicked and ran to the neighbours' house to get help. This is what most of my earlier life was like. I never felt like I belonged here and I felt misunderstood, wanting to escape. Early on I learnt that I was different, and instead of being myself, I lived with anxiety, trying to hide who I truly was. This was my normal. I needed to be the good girl, do the right thing and stay out of trouble. I never knew that it was possible to live with more ease and be in the present moment. 

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In 2007 I had a traumatic experience that created an urge in me to spend a month at an ashram in Puttaparthi, India. Something shifted in me while I was in India, but I didn't realise it at the time. The biggest message I received during my time at the ashram was that I needed to look within. I tried to do this with the little knowledge I had & could get my hands on.

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My life was materially great, but I felt empty and alone. Even though I had a loving, supportive husband and two beautiful fur kids, something was missing in my life. 

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In 2009 & 2010 I struggled with extreme suicidal thoughts. Leading me to looking at many different scenarios to end all the unbearable sadness, even though I had my dream job as an engineer and a beautiful family. 

 

In 2011 I had the opportunity to relocate to a smaller seaside town with loads of natural indigenous forests & it deeply resonated with me. Without much research we moved to East London. I loved my work, but threw myself into it, working 13-hour days more often than I should have. My anxiety was unbearable and my health started deteriorating. Medical practitioners struggled to diagnose me. Eventually I was labelled ADHD and medicated accordingly, but my dosage had to be increased regularly. It didn't help me, except that it made me feel like a zombie. I didn't want to be dependent on medication to put me in an okay state. I needed to find the joy I knew I had within me even if I didn't know how.

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An amazing energy healer and psychic crossed my path and helped me realise that I was experiencing a spiritual crisis. She helped me through this and helped me to heal and reconnect with my true essence. She has been an amazing teacher and friend and led me to other healers to aid me on my journey. With her gifts and guidance, she empowered me to trust myself. 

 

Today I am a Contemporary Artist, Quantum Oracle & Quantum Dark Art Defense Practitioner. And I want to share my gifts that I gained throughout my journey with people, especially empaths that can resonate with some aspect of my younger self on a journey to reconnect to their true essence so that they can awaken their gifts and share it with the world.